screw with feelings.... i can live without them for awhile ><

salute to the readers its been awhile now since ive put sumting 2 write about in dis WatCyaCallIt ThingaMaJig ><. i realise dat dis past months ive tried hard juz 2 get wat i cant get and wen id almost had it i juz gave up, yeah ive given up on sum1 i think i hold dear >.>. i think im not d type 2 hav dis so called *relationship* thingy. it juz makes my life worst n as a result, a scar on d heart *my poor poor heart* psst cuz of dis, ive came up wit a solution dat might help me 2 avoid years of heartache n dat is 2 focus on sumting else*for a chance*. if i could juz do dis things.... i might b able 2 live without any emotional feelings and ill b living in a healthy n wealthy lifestyle alone *hopefully i wont live alone* i think ill find d rite 'her' sooner or later. she can b almost evry1 for all i knw, she can even b in d same school as i m. but who knows rite. only God knows and only time can tell us rite, but for dis 2 happen, i too must do my part n try 2 grasp dat very chance i have if i ever found d rite 'her', d rite girl....^^

unexpected and suprised....><

i always thought that i would never get to feel it.... the feeling that being next with someone and happy about it.... i would never thought that something amazing was right in front of me... im glad that i realise it ^^ i hope she realise it too....><