screw with feelings.... i can live without them for awhile ><

salute to the readers its been awhile now since ive put sumting 2 write about in dis WatCyaCallIt ThingaMaJig ><. i realise dat dis past months ive tried hard juz 2 get wat i cant get and wen id almost had it i juz gave up, yeah ive given up on sum1 i think i hold dear >.>. i think im not d type 2 hav dis so called *relationship* thingy. it juz makes my life worst n as a result, a scar on d heart *my poor poor heart* psst cuz of dis, ive came up wit a solution dat might help me 2 avoid years of heartache n dat is 2 focus on sumting else*for a chance*. if i could juz do dis things.... i might b able 2 live without any emotional feelings and ill b living in a healthy n wealthy lifestyle alone *hopefully i wont live alone* i think ill find d rite 'her' sooner or later. she can b almost evry1 for all i knw, she can even b in d same school as i m. but who knows rite. only God knows and only time can tell us rite, but for dis 2 happen, i too must do my part n try 2 grasp dat very chance i have if i ever found d rite 'her', d rite girl....^^

unexpected and suprised....><

i always thought that i would never get to feel it.... the feeling that being next with someone and happy about it.... i would never thought that something amazing was right in front of me... im glad that i realise it ^^ i hope she realise it too....><

R U WILLING?

if u were 2 choose either 2 b wit sum1 u care about n protect them with everything u got or letting dat same person go for their sake..... which would u choose?...... the best choice is.... to never let urself get into dis kind of decision..... avoid it from happening 2 u.... XP

Dr.Nick: Hello evrybody ^^

wah its been so long ive did write anything XP..... eventhough ive been through alot of interesting event(actually i wanted 2 write fun but.... u knw i mean)..... but like im lazy to write about what ive been through..... so im gonna write something that will blow your..... socks off??!! XP..... did you know..... some actress is n always been a dude.... XD if u wanna know more try looking it in the internet wakakak..... XP, if u still cant find out who.... ask me at ....... my...... tandas..... wakakaka XP tata for now

our songs...... (chorus)

ok its juz i pick up from some lyric..... for fun ><

CHORUS:
our song is a slamming screen door,sneakin' out late,
tapping on your window,
when we're on the phone and you talk real slow,
cause it's late and your mama don't know,
our song is the way you laugh,
the first date, "man, i didn't kiss her, and i should have",
and when i got home...before i said amen,
asking god if he could play it again.

(i was bored.... hav nothing to do ><)

haha....

today or isit yesterday..... nvm ><..... i guess dat i reliese it 1st..... i reliese dat it will nvr b i guess.... i shud juz stop n go on..... it was very stupid of me 2 tell myself all dis bunch of lies and makin myself feel alot better.... n in d end i wound up hurtin myself more.... ^^ so dis is 1 of my promise i cant fulfill for my frens..... im sry guys..... i was too blind to see it but now ive seen d truth.... i shud juz stop chasing a nvr ending lies...... a never ending dream...... ^^ i post dis is so dat i could record evrything i tot of either today or yesterday.... cuz im a very forgetful person n if i dun write it down...... i nvr stop chasing my nvr ending lies, lies n more lies so im sorry if any of u read dis n felt bored or anything... its juz my way to be wat u say dat.... free from all of dis... ^^ n if any of u think dat dis is emo-ish den suit urself i wrote it not to let myself being judge based on ur prespective on me.... but actually its wat i wanted to do so if u wanna make joke bout me nex tym u see me..... go ahead cuz i dun care at all.... in fact it is juz makin me feel bad for urself.... wow sry bout dat it was juz my tym i guess.... for any of u who doesnt knw wat my tym means..... it means its my to shine or my turn to speak out or sumting i guess.... ok nvm im juz sry if any of u feel hurt or anything... sry to make u feel dat way..... anyway i think dats all for now......XP thx for reading..... n to my frens i cant fulfill my promise to.... sry..... >< FYI dis is juz 1 of my un emo-ish, not giving up,not end of sum1 life,n not makin ppl down spirited kind of story..... hope u enjoy reading it ^^...... owh lastly if any of u wan to leave sumthing..... feel free to comment either gud or bad its still comment aint it ^^..... btw dis is juz 1 of my experience..... ^^

a new me i guess.....

i think i actually become less playful n more serious..... n it still wasnt my 100% self juz 80%.... >.> at least its not less then that.... ^^

wakakakak..... THANK YOU ^^

thx to a certain fren.... i realise sumting..... i shud juz forget bout it all n b myself for a change..... ^^..... thx !#&F@(* for givin me a very hlpful advice.... ^^

Stressful week huuuu..... >.>

i dont know why but its really been a harsh week for me though.... @@ ever since i tried being myself (focus, open minded, a little bit quiet-er then usual, and not a pain in the neck to other people) but because of that... ive been more emo-ish ( @!#!@$$# its the last thing i wanna be ) @@.... even this blog looks emo-ish for me..... @@ what the $%$# hopefully ill manage to get trough with it..... i really hate being emo-ish..... ( would do something really jackass just to prevent myself being emo) ^^V

juz sumting to filled up my tym.... pls enjoy XP

Vulnerable – secondhand serenade

Share with me the blankets that your wrapped in
Because its cold outside cold outside its cold outside
Share with me the secrets that you kept in
Because its cold inside cold inside its cold inside

And your slowly shaking finger tips
Show that your scared like me so
Let's pretend we're alone
And I know you may be scared
And I know we're unprepared
But I don't care

Tell me, tell me
What makes you think that you are invincible?
I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure
Please don't tell me that I'm the only one that's vulnerable
Impossible

I was born to tell you I love you
Isn't that a song already?
I get a B in originality
And it's true I can't go on without you
Your smile makes me see clear
If you could only see in the mirror what I see

And you're slowly shaking finger tips
Show that you're scared like me so
Let's pretend we're alone
And I know you may be scared
And I know we're unprepared
But I don't care

Tell me, tell me
What makes you think that you are invincible?
I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure
Please don't tell me that I'm the only one that's vulnerable
Impossible

Slow down girl -- you're not going anywhere
Just wait around and see
Maybe I am much more you never know what lies ahead
I promise I can be anyone, I can be anything
Just because you were hurt doesn't mean you shouldn't bleed
I can be anyone, anything, I promise I can be what you need

Tell me tell me

What makes you think that you are invincible?

I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure

Please don't tell me that I'm the only one that's vulnerable

Impossible

very exhuasting day....

huhu i really really sweat alot today..... >.> its all bcuz of d activity i did in and out of d skul.... @@ i didnt even get any sleep yesterday..... now i didnt get a chance 2 rest for 3 minutes..... @@ too much activity..... ok i admit dat it was kinda fun today.... but hopefully nex tym i get atleast a chance 2 sit down 4 atleast 1 minute.... huhu @@

hmm....>.>

haihz.... today was a very very very stressful day for me at school @@.... 1st i have 'disgrace' or isit 'dishonour'..... ok going on.... i have disgrace my class and made a fool of myself just to ask question.... >.> then after that... this certain teacher go and blaming my not so innocent classmate..... if any of you guys are reading this.... im very sorry.... after that incident.... i was being wet by my own classmate... actually i was being shot with water.... huhu.... i really did my best to stay calm.... then it happens.... a group of girls from my class when to dishonour this fat rihanna wanna be cause she a junior disrespect our class the senior.... but this fat rihanna wanna be have a gurangak brother.... her bro when to my friends table and trying to be the hero of the day but instead he'll be called tomorrow for questioning.... good thing it stop.... huhu.... if that so call guy ever touch one of my friends.... i hope that the parents could recognise him...... huh!

haha hihi huhu.... XP

wakaka thank god all of my stress went away today.... well almost all..... but atleast im happier den ever la XP..... huhu im very greatful 2 God cuz i can live my life 2 the fullest..... RUAR!!!!

hu du hu hu du~~

huhu..... its been so long ive didnt post my blog XP...... ok the reason i didnt post is cuz i hav a really stressful week...... yes a VERY stressful week...... and its all bcuz of my old old VERY old problems came back to me...... really came back 2 me...... so ive became dis person dat i really hate..... a cold-hearted person, with a twisted mind..... @@ nah im juz kidding bout d part being all cold-hearted n twisted... XP but i did became an emo..... >.> thank god i repent or sumthing bout my feelings...... huhu XP..... now my stress has all went away..... thx 2 my believes ^^V now i can go on wit my happy go lucky life.... i think..... XP

a weirdy day today....

huhu..... i was not myself today..... i was too d max not me..... @@....... at 1st i tot it was bcuz of d air goin into my head cuz i was bald or sumting..... but i was more aggressive towards my fren.... T.T..... i did sumting so cruel dat its forbidden to talk bout it..... sumting wrong with my head.... its all started..... (to be continue....... kruk2 XP)

i was forced to write this......

sry guys..... i didnt hav d tym 2 write or update my blog..... XP..... i almost forgot bout blog... but my fren..... jules forced me 2 write on my blog..... btw jules is a girl wit a guy nickname..... she wanted me 2 write funny story like my flashback.... i dun even knw if my flashback was dat funny.... but she keep on *threatening* me to write more..... XP so im sry 4 those owh read dis.... im juz wasting ur tym ^^ if ur mad pls leave an angry comment on ur way out frm my blog... XP

a weird flashback....

i had a weirdest flashback..... or whatever they call it.... but it was weird.... it was when i waited for my friend's transport back home from the tuition.... so when we waited..... suddenly it was raining heavily.... then i so a small man.... then i said.... hey theres a small man jumping around going all halubalu..... wakkakaka that was my flashback.... sry for wasting ur tym XP..... im juz filling my time doin sumting XD

huhu max bored...

i tot i got plan 2 to dis holiday.... but i didnt do anything owh >.>....... all i did was goin 2 camp n dats all...... im so BORED........ >.> hopefully i can go somewhere today T.T..... huhu

feeling bored ... huh...

i hav nothing to do today >.>...... awh feel like wanna do sumthing outrageous but lazy to do all work alone>.> even if i do it... ders no1 to show my outrageous activity XD.... huhu im so bored..... isnt there anything to do here >.>...... i hope i have sumting to do... anything >.>

Back from camp...

i just got back from the camp today.... it was so tiring camp.... but it made me realise that i could change my attitude if i just try XD ........ so im gonna change my.... ummm ..... cant be attitude..... my wrong doings... or something like that XP..... bottom line is im gonna be a better person.... so look out world theres a new Adveray in town.... or something like that XP...